Sooo recently I feel like I've been having a bit of a mare with my life (!!) but I think it's okay now, and I think I've got things sorted... My minds been a bit all over the place recently, with what to do with the future and how to make things and everything I want to do happen and how to fit in all the places I want to see, and basically just being me and worrying about E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G.
BUT I've finally come up with a decision and I'm happy with it - I feel a bit more calm and at peace knowing that I've made the right choice, and that I'll be able to pursue what I love - which is photography. I don't regret this year and starting a degree in Fashion Promotion at all - I've met so many cool people, had so many amazing experiences, been to so many great events, have so many lovely memories and have had so so much laughter and I was generally so happy. But from January I haven't been very happy at all. My head hasn't been in the right place and I think it was because deep down I knew it was time to move on and that I had made the wrong choice, that it was time to do the next thing and that's pretty scary when you think about it all.
Numerous things had happened which just made me think, hang on a minute, am I doing the right thing? I absolutely love fashion, but I feel like uni has almost tainted my love for that and am I paying £9,000 to have one of my passions squished??? Errrrrrr no. I felt as it I wasn't spending my days being creative enough, I felt as if I sat on my laptop all day every day and that's not me. I don't enjoy that and can't focus that way, I find it too boring, I'm too hands on and creative to do that.
But, I guess that we live and we learn and I am a strong believer that everything happens for a reason and that our lives are planned out before we are born, so everything that happens to us, we wanted too for a reason, because we grow from it, we learn from it and it makes us a better person. So now, it's time for me to enter the big scary world and make MY life happen for ME and get things going and start doing what I love and follow my passions.
I think that if the question 'am I doing the right thing with my life' pops into your mind a number of times, then chances are you probably aren't. You only have one life to do what you love, and to fill your days with happiness, and people who inspire you and you can bounce of each others energy. So no matter how scary it is, no matter how much money it will cost you (you'll figure out a way to make it work), and absolutely no matter how many people tell you you're doing the wrong thing, or don't agree with what you are doing, if you believe it's the right thing, do it.
P.S I went for the nicest walk around where I live the other day, it was so so warm and so sunny and just so lovely and I took loads of pictures (the ones on this post). SPRING IS COMING
P.P.S I'm seeing George Ezra tonight and I'm SO EXCITED
Listening toooooo: Ellie Goulding - Love Me Like You Do