LOST, LOVED & WON

I have lost and loved and won and cried myself to the person I am today.

— Charlotte Eriksso

I read this quote and instantly felt like I related to it so much. I'm feeling really good at the moment, I feel in a good place and I feel like everything is exactly where it needs to be. I've worked so hard to get to where I am now. I've hit so many hurdles, overcome countless blips and cried too much but this year has just been a year that I never want to forget. I feel like I've had so many achievements and done things that I literally never ever would've thought I could've done a couple years ago. Like I actually graduated !! And went to America and travelled on my own !! And left uni with a 2:1 !! And went away with B !! And did all these little stepping stones that were super hard but I look back on and think YES YES YES and then I just get so excited for the future and to see what is in store!!

I've been working a lot recently which is a total bore, but I've been really focusing on getting into a routine and balancing my free time between hitting the gym, chilling with my friends, seeing my family, having me time and seeing B. And I feel like I have a good little thing going on, I've had some really exciting emails come through that could potentially lead to a few really fun opportunities and I'm really motivated and positive about my blog and keeping it going and working on the next chapter of my life. 

Although work is long hours and takes me away from working on personal projects and job applications, I'm getting money that I can put towards MORE holidays because that's what being a graduate and freedom is about right ??? I can literally do whatever I want and at the moment that's blogging, earning some money, and taking trips around the world. Hopefully I'll be visiting Greece with Billy, and Portugal & Lanzarote with my famo and then after that I'll probably wanna book another holiday haha, definitely getting the travel bug!

I also feel like I've got deeper connections with everyone in my life at the moment, I don't wanna jinx anything but my friends have been so amazing recently and me and Billy are great and had the best couple weeks together and home life is good and I'm just feeling really happy and excited for the next stage. I have no idea what's in store or what I wanna do and although it's super scary and nerve wracking and makes me feel off balance I'm trying to just ride with it and see where it leads... Who knows what could happen..

A, x

P.S - I've totally been obsessing over the youtubers Kalyn Nicholson & Sammy Robinson recently, can't stop watching their videos and they're so beaut and seem so lovely and I think that's another reason I've been feeling really motivated recently.

Charli XCX - Boys