Mid Monday daily thoughts
Mid day rambles, thoughts getting jumbled and letting them loose. New inspiration and ideas, pictures and thoughts. My headspace feels a little all over the place right now, overwhelmed, excited, anxious, tired... I thought I should get it out and start blogging again as I've missed it. Sometimes you get reminders, whether it be through music or imagery, a quote or a memory that reminds you of why you started something, or a past idea that led you to starting something new. That happened to me today, and I'm excited to start blogging. With last year being a bit of a shambles, I have fresh inspiration and a lot of cool ideas for pictures and videos and posts which will hopefully come soon..
ometimes I find it impossibly hard to not get caught up in things. No matter how exciting things are, sometimes the power of feeling overwhelmed can wash over you, and just for a second it allows you to get caught up in all the possibilities and worries of the future. Which
in hindsight is so silly. As Umar Ibn Al-Khattaab once said, 'No amount of guilt can change the past, and no amount of worrying can change the future. If something is meant to go elsewhere, it will never come your way, but if it is yours by destine, from it you cannot flee." Worrying will never change the outcome, and I wish I had learnt, or at least completely put that into practise by now.
Sometimes I feel like I experience this a little too often, and it's a really tough feeling to comprehend.
I think the thought of graduating in 4 months has started to sink in and is scaring me a little !!! I have 14 weeks left of uni. 14 WEEKS. (!!\DSGJ!!!!) And then what am I gonna do?!?! I have no idea and maybe that's why I feel so freaked out and overwhelmed. Even though it scares me, there's another part of me that I guess likes not knowing what I'm doing or where I'm going. It's scary but exciting because it allows you to be more spontaneous and see how you feel. Have time to really think about what you want to do as there's so much freedom and time. The freedom to travel and visit new places, apply for dream internships, visit friends and family abroad, move to a new place, set up a business.. Who knows !
I also feel like in the last 3 years I have learnt SO many lessons. It's funny because when I had turned 20 I remember writing a post called '20 things I learnt before I turned 20' and I thought I had learnt so much. I honestly didn't think there was more things I can learn. But godddddd how I was wrong, I've learnt more about myself and who I am in the last three years then I did in the previous 18. Maybe it comes with maturity, or maybe it comes through heartaches, but regardless of how it happened, I'm so glad it did. Some were so hard, with things I didn't want to, or never thought I could face up too, let alone learn. But some where good. The best things I could ever imagine; and I'm so glad that I documented all of that on my blog. I love re reading
through my old posts and finding the songs that I was obsessed with. It reminds me or past ideas or dreams or feelings I had, re inspires me and reminds me of things that I got through.
Anyway I'm not really sure where this is going but it's my current head space. I guess underestimating yourself is a big theme. It's confusing when there's so many opinions and ideas in your life, but with 2017 being a fresh start for everything, I thought it would be good for my blog to have that too. I guess I kinda lost interest in the past year, but have refreshed myself in remembering why I started it in the first place, and I'm so happy I did. This new year has just been a blessing so far. Fresh starts with everything, and with the anxiousness of the future comes so much excitement and possibilities.
Flight Facilities - Clair De Lune
MUNA - Winterbreak
* Pictures from tumblr